SW: 256
LW: 252
CW: 252
I’ve been feeling a bit crabby and depressed lately, so you’ll have to forgive me if I rant.
I know I said last week that it has suddenly become a lot less about the numbers, and it has. That was no lie. I’m more concerned about what I’m achieving in regards to healthier eating and exercise. Heck, I’m up to fifteen minutes on the elliptical and I am totally proud of myself.
But (you knew that was coming, right?) I am getting nervous. I’m exercising nearly every day now and I’m not losing weight. Heck, I gained two pounds last week, but I passed it off as water weight.
This happened when I first started going to the gym as well. I started exercising and the weight loss just stopped. I wasn’t exactly losing heaps then or now, but still. And now I have this fear that it’s going to happen all over again and the weight loss will just stop.
And if one more person gives me the ‘you’re gaining muscle’ speech, I’m going to scream. I know you can gain muscle when you strength train and whatnot. I know how it works. It’s *not* normal to stop losing weight when you add in exercise. Gaining muscles happens, yes, but you don’t just stop losing weight for over half a year.
I feel like there is a third player in this stupid game that is keeping my body from working properly. I am not expecting miracles, but I’ve been exercising, eating right, keeping a food diary, drinking heaps of water, and all I have to show for it is a two pound gain? Something isn’t right there.
That’s not going to stop me, though. I fully intend to be able to go for thirty minute runs on the elliptical before my appointments in February.