This past week and some has certainly been quite the emotional time for me, both in good and bad ways. Between the revelations from the photo project and the emotional trauma of having to confess a binge to my husband, I’m left feeling a little raw.
I declared ‘house arrest’ on myself – just for today – because I know there are only healthy things for me to eat. As Jenera said, you do so well for an amount of time, and then (if you are a binge eater) this feeling of panic overwhelms you to the point you stop thinking and want to eat everything you can get your hands on. Having healthy food – and only healthy food – at least negates eating too much of the nasty stuff.
‘House arrest’ is probably not the best thing to call it, but I’m basically not going anywhere I may be tempted by less healthy food.
I was upset that I had to do this for myself at first, but as The Bloke stated, at least I am recognizing the need and avoiding temptations.
I’m finding that I’m becoming increasingly frustrated with the lack of books and papers on binge eating disorder. I feel like if I could understand more about the disorder, I could better handle what I go through.
I know it has only somewhat recently been recognized as a mental illness, but surely there should be something. At least one book out there that could help me understand.
If anyone has any recommended reading on the subject, please let me know.