It’s that time again – weighing in!

I haven’t gone to the doctor, but I am weighing back in again because I have gone the way of assistance.

Starting weight: 256
Current weight: 254

Yes, I gained a bit of weight back during my time off the scales, but I’m keying in on the pounds lost.

What I mean by ‘gone the way of assistance’ is that I am trying an herbal supplement that is supposed to help you lose weight. Now, I know what most of you are thinking, but it’s herbal first off so I don’t mind giving it a try.

What am I trying? FatBlaster (what a stupid name, I reckon) from Naturopathica. I started it on Saturday.

So far things have been good. I’m a bit thirstier than usual and a bit gassy, but those are the only side effects so far. The thirstier part is a good thing, I think, because it will help me keep drinking enough water.

Today is Labor Day here in Victoria, so I’m not at the gym today, but I plan to get back to it starting tomorrow with more determination than ever.

Who knew two pounds could do so much for motivation?

In the future I hope to get some meal replacement powder so I can start having full, nutritious breakfasts. I love my protein mix cereal, but I think it might be making me tired.

How are you doing with your weight loss? Have you lost any? Gained? Plateau? Are you having troubles with anything? What is your plan of action for this week?

SW: 262
LW: 254
CW: 252

Woohoo! Look at that. Ten pounds from my highest weight. Definitely a good thing.

To be honest, I’m a bit surprised (surprised enough to step on the scale a couple times) to see a loss. Given I’m on the tail end of TOM plus not moving as much as I should because of cold/cough 2009 (I’m finally going to a doc tonight), I’m just really surprised.

Despite, well, everything, I feel like I’m in a pretty good place right now. I’ve finally figured out that yes, I know what I have to do. Now I just need to address the psychological component for weight loss.

It may sound silly or strange, but I think – on the subconscious level, at least – I am willing myself to stay at my current weight. I definitely don’t want to gain any weight, but there are a lot more strings attached to losing weight than I previously realized.

How do I know? Well, I have been successful with losing weight and getting fit since I started this journey. I want to be healthy and be able to have kids. But I hiccup. I almost religiously fail at a certain point (240 pounds) every single time I get close.

I also know because some of my earliest memories – we’re talking five and six years old – are of me sitting alone at the dinner table after everyone else had finished and stuffing myself until it literally hurt. It’s hard to admit to, even now, but it just goes to show that I need to address those issues – the ones that caused a little girl to think the only solution was to eat as much as possible as often as possible.

There is a long road ahead, but I have a good feeling about it. With ‘all the ducks in a row’ so to say, I can lose, continue to lose, and keep it all off.

So how are you doing?

SW: 262
LW: 254
CW: 254

To be completely honest with you, I really don’t have the energy to care about what I weigh this week.

The Headcold From Hell (though it’s more than that – I just like the alliteration) just plain refuses to let go completely. I’m doing better, overall, than I was at this time last week, but I’m still sapped of energy most of the time. I easily run out of breath, I get tired easily, little things are more of an effort… Lots of fun in my body at the moment. Unfortunately, my snot (yep, I said it) is showing that I’m still battling hard with whatever is going on.

I’ve tried pushing myself (fresh air makes everything better thing), I’ve tried resting (I’m blogging from bed at the moment), eucalyptus bath (which left me smelling quite nice)… Nothing has been kicking this thing out of me for good.

And please don’t suggest pills. The all natural stuff that has always worked in the past isn’t working and I’m not interested in synthetic crap.

As you may have guessed by the tone of this post, I’m a bit crabby too. I’m really trying hard not to be, but my poor husband can tell you my efforts haven’t always been successful lately.

Also, the progesterone prescribed to me didn’t cause a bleed and now I’m waiting for a call back from my doctor. Bloody freaking fun, I tell you.

Anyone have any suggestions on the best way to relax?

SW: 262
LW: 256
CW: 254

I’ve decided that, even though I didn’t start at 262, I would put it as my starting weight because it’s the highest weight I have ever (to my knowledge) been at. I can think of reasons why not to switch it like that, but honestly, my focus right now is to ‘come off’ that weight. So why not have it at the starting weight?

I’m happy to have another loss this week, but I think it all has to do with water. Honestly, I’ll probably see a bit of a gain next week because I’ve been put on medication to kick start my TOM and then I’ll be back on the pill. Fun, fun, but we do what we must.

Last week I went to see an endocrinologist and a dietician (which I’ll write more about later) and, from what they have said, I’m not actually doing too badly with food. There are things I need to change around like eating more fruit and making my evening meal smaller, but I’m definitely on the right track.

So this week I am focusing on portion control and sticking to eating on schedule. I have started a new food diary to bring in to the dietician the next time I see her and I have also bought some things that will help me with portion control. (Like individual serves of things instead of bulk containers.) It costs a little more, admittedly, but I’m willing to pay the price until I’m better with things.

Things have calmed down here, thankfully, but in calming down, a bug that has been trying to drag me down for a week has finally caught hold. I wanted to start exercising an increased amount as soon as I started with everything else, but the energy is definitely lacking. I’m trying to move around a lot, but going for a jog isn’t on the agenda until at least tomorrow morning.

But once I’m started… Rain or shine.

How is everyone else doing?

LW: 262
CW: 256

Who would have thought I could be happy to see 256 again? Either way, I am.

Or rather, I’m trying to be. With everything going on in Victoria, Australia (my home state) right now, worrying about numbers on a scale seems stupid. And honestly, I probably only lost that much because it was too hot to do anything but drink buckets of water. Talk about flushing out your system.

This is the week I’m going to the Women’s Clinic in Melbourne. The husband and I already did a ‘dry run’ so I know where to go. I’ll be there bright and early, even though my first appointment isn’t until 9.30am. I get paranoid about these things, though, so I’d rather be much earlier than late.

I really am just having a tough time getting the enthusiasm to do anything. I don’t feel like doing much. I just can’t stop thinking about the people who have lost their lives – in the literal sense and in the sense that everything has burned to the ground.

The husband and I don’t have any super close friends in the area, but we’ve been touring around most of the areas affected and met a lot of nice people. I’ll cherish those memories now, as a couple of the towns we visited are just gone now…

I’d demand to drive to the areas to help out right now if I knew I wouldn’t just be in the way. And so I sit thinking about them. Helping when and where I can from here.