SW: 262
LW: -
CW: 260

Hello everyone!

Yeah, I know; I’m sounding a bit perky for someone who is only two pounds away from highest weight, but there is so much going on right now…

First, I had a great time on holiday. Talk about relaxing. Mmm. I could definitely use some more of that. I’m also fairly certain that a pound or so of the gain I’ve had came from the holiday (as it does). I mean, I did have pancakes for the first time in four (probably more) years.

Also, there is the TOM weight gain that it took me two months of birth control to figure out lands right on Monday, which is weigh in day. Smart move, that… *grumblegrumble*

I am still feeling pretty fantastic, though. Through bad times good things can come.

We arrived home to a pretty nasty rent rise – that we’re going to appeal – that lit a fire under our bottoms about moving. I’m hoping we get to move to New South Wales (gorgeous place with a lot more job opportunities for Mr. JM) so keep your fingers crossed for us.

I’m getting into a new exercise and eating routine that I’m quite proud of. You may think I’m kind of crazy for starting a new routine during TOM week, but when I think about it, I don’t want to wait any longer. I’m sick of being fat. I want to be the skinny me in my picture.

I’m cutting out alcohol (with the exception of the once every few weeks glass of red wine) completely. I’m also cutting out things that I let myself indulge in because they weren’t candy bars – muffins, banana bread, chai latte. I’m also cutting down on my breads/grains in a more gradual manner. Saying a flat no to all of that is just going to make me binge.

I’m brave enough to move from the individual serves of yogurt to the bulk (cheaper) container, so that will be the first test of whether or not I’m getting past my binging. Wish me will power.

The exercise is going great (after one day…) I’m combining bits of everything (stretching, yoga, cardio, weights) and breaking it up to two times a day so I am active more often and I don’t get bored.

See? I told you: huge amount of things going on right now, but I’m feeling great about everything. Even despite the gain.

You can be assured I’ll be checking in often with this stuff, though, because I want to succeed all the way! I won’t screw things up this time.

HW: 262
LW: 254
CW: 258

As they say in Australia, “Not happy, Jan.” Then again, not a mystery either.

My husband and I were in the car the other day and I was squirming around a bit because I was having some gnarly not-time-of-the-month cramps. After a few moments of sensing he was down, I finally asked him what was wrong.

He sighed. “I’m worried about you. It seems like you’re going from illness to illness.”

Without hesitation or pause, I said, “It’s because I’m not exercising.”

Don’t you just love it when your subconscious has figured something out and waits until an odd moment to let your conscious mind know?

After February and March’s glandular fever recurrence to deal with, some cramps – albeit bad ones – aren’t really moving from illness to illness. I knew what he meant though – I was just back to normal and something else went wrong. The funny thing is, though, that somewhere in my mind I realized the missing piece to my jigsaw currently is that I’m not exercising.

There are other things going on as well, of course, like working on the portion sizes for eating every two to three hours. I was doing well on remembering to eat, but as is made obvious with the weight gain, I was just eating too much.

I’m not too upset about the gain because I know why it happened and how to fix it. I do worry that people who read here will get sick of me yoyo-ing around the 250s, but it’s all trial and error anyway. I’m blogging because I need the support now, not when I figure out the method that works for me for losing weight.

I won’t be able to weigh in next week because Mr. JM and I are going on a road trip starting early next Monday morning, but come the Monday after that, you can bet your last dollar…

Believe it or not, I completely forgot about the weigh in. Just slipped my mind. I’ve also decided on a mental health day, so there is no real post about much of anything at the moment…

Best wishes,

JM

SW: 262
LW: 252
CW: 254

TOM weight gain. That’s something I definitely didn’t miss when I wasn’t having proper cycles. Mind you, two pounds is a lot better than the five pounds I used to gain like clockwork when I was a teenager.

This week things are a bit interesting in the flat. A few things are changing and will hopefully prove to be just what we need.

For the first time, I have planned out a menu for the whole week – every single meal (and I’ve scheduled in exercise, too) – and we’re going to try to follow. So far today, things have been good. Some experimental meals have turned out to be great and very satisfying.

Of course, with food comes water. I slacked on a lot of things while I was sick and now I’m getting back into them gently.

I keep reminding myself that, while the menu is all written up, I can change things if I feel I have to. That may seem, to some, like it defeats the purpose of having the menu, but it’s what I have to do. I tend to get really obsessive about food and such, so reminding myself that things are flexible is helping ease the obsessive tide that I already feel rising a smidge.

Like I mentioned, I scheduled in exercise as well. I have an hour of exercise every day with a DVD. It’s a workout that combines yoga and pilates. And for anyone who thinks that’s not a tough workout, well buy the DVD and try it yourself. Even the instructor gets sweaty, so there.

On the mental health side of things, I’ve decided to hold off on food/body image counseling until at least my next appointment at the women’s clinic (early May). That will give me time to journal as well as see if I can stamp out/get past the issues and obsessions I get. (I’ll explain more about that stuff later.)

It feels kind of overwhelming to address so much at once, but it also feels good to be working on it.

How is everyone else going?

Hi everyone!

I hope you enjoyed Mr. JM’s time here last week. He’s really good to me when I’m ill and he wanted to help me get as much rest as possible by taking over some of my blogs.

He’s a peach like that.

Time to weigh in…

SW: 262
LW: 252
CW: 252

No change, and I am totally okay with that. Haha!

Mystery Virus 2009 continues to suck all my energy, so I have zero exercise since I last weighed in. Just walking to the shops (which I did all of once) was a major trip for me that left me exhausted. So going twenty minutes on the elliptical? Out of the question.

I’m calling it Mystery Virus because no one has been able to tell me (with absolute certainty) what’s happening or even when I can expect to get better. Right now I just plan on finishing the meds I’m currently on and then I’m going to let my body do as it wishes. I have a bit more energy than I have, so I’m going to start doing some gentle exercises to get things going.

It’s been so weird to experience this. My brain is in working order and all that, so it’s like a brief taste of what it feels like to have your body betray you. There was a point when I switched my office chair for a comfy chair because I was dozing off at the computer pretty regularly.

Thankfully I am past that stage. So, two more days of meds and then lots of positive thinking. I’ve done everything doctors have told me to do and nothing has worked, so I’m going to start doing what I feel is right. And that’s just plain ignoring that I’m sick. Hehe!

I hope you all are doing well!