One of the big reasons I am trying to lose weight is because I want to have as healthy of a pregnancy as I can. While having a baby isn’t in my close financial future, that just means I have more time to work with when it comes to losing weight.

I’ve lost a heap of weight since starting meal replacements in May, and I am very proud for having done that. And yet, I’m not where I thought I would be having lost forty pounds. Like I said, we’re not ready for baby right now, but I at least thought we’d be using condoms because I wouldn’t need to be on The Pill for regularity any more.

I’m tempted to tell the doctor that I want off birth control, but I don’t see what my other options are for at least keeping up the image of things going without it. Sure, it was fine when I got my ultrasound early this year, but that doesn’t mean going a long while without a TOM won’t screw me up next time or cause problems.

I want to be a mother so badly, but I am afraid that whatever is going on with my body is going to prevent that dream from coming true. I know a lot of women with PCOS (I’m not 100% sure I have PCOS, by the way) just have to lose a little weight and then they get pregnant, but therein lies the problem.

Now I have lost weight, and it doesn’t seem to have done much. They say just 5% of body weight lost helps most women to restore regularity, and yet nothing is happening for me off The Pill.

Rock, hard place, rock, hard place.

I don’t want to damage what chances I have of getting pregnant, but am I doing the damage by staying on birth control or going off it?