Naturally Curvy

SW: 264
LW: 228
CW: 226

Woo! Slow and steady wins the race, eh?

That’s been my general attitude toward the whole getting healthy thing (did I just call it that? Haha) right now. I’m mentally calm and good the majority of the time, I’ve been making good choices most of the time, I fully acknowledge the not-so-great decisions…

I’m doing pretty well. Haha.

I also have some new motivation to keep on track.

You see, I’m a numbers person. I love, love, love numbers. If I didn’t have some sort of number dyslexia going on, I would have gone into accounting. Anywho…

I have figured out on my weight loss spreadsheet that by losing a healthy amount of weight each week – one to two pounds – I could be to my goal weight just about a year from the day I started meal replacement last year. Woot!

I’m not going to freak out if I don’t make it, but it is nice for a number-obsessive person like me. A year to the day… One to two pounds per week… Good stuff all around.

Not only that, I could be at my goal weight by my my third wedding anniversary. How awesome would that be? *cough*How awesome would it be to start trying to conceive on our anniversary? Ahem.*cough*

2010 is going to be a year of positive changes. I just know it.

SW: 264
LW: 232
CW: 228

Phew. It feels so good to be back on the right track and back in the 220s.

Do you know what the most incredible feeling is? Coming back from something with a gain, and knowing exactly what you need to do to lose it. Maybe it’s not the most exciting feeling, but there is a safety and comfort in finding something that works for you and knowing that you can always go back to it whenever you fall off the wagon (or jump off, as the case may be).

I feel like I’m finally *getting* it that my body is not my enemy but rather something I can love, cherish and take good care of. I’ve heard, I’ve thought it, but now I’m ‘walking the walk’ so to say.

Already the calm mind I get from healthier, mostly raw eating has come back and I am feeling more peaceful. Without all the negative thoughts running around, I can pay special attention to what I am putting in my body.

I’ve taken a standpoint of thinking about the forms my food come in and what that will do to my digestive system.

For example: peanut butter. A bit sticky, a bit messy… Sure, it tastes pretty good, but I think about what that sticky messiness does on the inside of me and… well… I pass.

Sure, it’s not the most genius thing in the world, but it has me thinking about my food in new ways, which is a good thing in my book.

I did a bit of a cleanse this weekend, as it’s always more inspiring for me to stick to healthier eating after my system is clean, and boy has it worked. I’ve had nothing but good foods since, and I am feeling fantastic. I’m really thinking not just about what tastes good but about how each dish will influence my system.

All the way through.

Not everyone has the time for all this deep and meaningful thinking. I usually don’t. But I am taking advantage of my peaceful mindspace (you really don’t know how wonderful this is if you haven’t dealt with a chaotic mind aka depression, mania, bipolar, etc) and doing what I can.

I’m certainly not perfect, but heck, I am very happy.