This picture doesn’t do justice to the green colour of the smoothie. It actually looked (and smelled like) blended up grass. Haha. It tasted fantastic, though. Yum
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05 Oct 2009 | By Jaime
Starting Weight: 264
Last Week: 224
This Week: 222
Pounds Lost: 42
Woohoo! I always love a change for the better when it comes to my weight.
With the need to fill my birth control prescription coming up, I have been looking more into herbal remedies. I don’t want to just go off the stuff willy nilly and hope that I will eventually get a period. That’s not good. I would, however, like to be on herbs rather than hormones.
This last PMS time really struck it home that I am, at the very least, not on the right kind of pill. I’m still tired, I’ve had the munchies, been mood swingy, had headaches…
Even with all that, it’s easy enough for people to come here and tell me what I need to do. (That’s actually fine, as I’m more than happy to research any advice given.) But it’s harder to do when you’re the person doing it. I don’t just want to ditch the pill (as much as I dislike it) and risk all of the things I risked last time by not keeping things ticking along for months.
I guess I’m just feeling a bit stroppy about it all. Five pounds was all it used to take and then I would have a TOM. Now about 15% of my body weight is gone and I’m still dealing with all this crap. It doesn’t make me feel great about my chances of having kids.
I do well. I’m not perfect, but I do well with my eating habits. And yet, it just never seems enough. I had to do meal replacement to lose any significant amount of weight. Again, it’s easy enough for someone to come along and say ‘this works!’ but I have to figure out what works for my body, my life, etc.
This turned into a bit of a rant and I didn’t mean it too. Oops.
I’m not saying don’t give me advice. I’m not mad at anyone. I’m just mad that things are like this.
Thankfully, though, we have a herb farm just a short drive away. I’ll be going there soon for some help with all this.
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02 Oct 2009 | By Jaime
For this week’s Friday funny, I am going to post a story from my old weight loss blog…
This is probably – no, this just plain is – too much information, but if you avoid getting a PAP Smear because you think it’s embarrassing and uncomfortable…
Well, I have a tale for you that will have you not feeling quite so embarrassed in comparison.
(Put after the more tag for the sake of the menfolk.)
No woman likes getting a PAP Smear. As far as most of us are concerned, the list of things that should go ‘up there’ does not include a speculum. Not to mention another woman (or man) checking out your lady bits ‘because you have to’.
I’ve never had a PAP Smear. So, naturally, I shaved my legs for my first appointment. You know, the one when she didn’t actually have time to do one. This past appointment when she did have time? I was at the brillo pad stage of needing to shave my legs.
To be honest, I think she was more uncomfortable than I was. Why? That’s where the tale gets interesting.
She did a quick check of my outer areas and I must have gone to my happy place somehow because it wasn’t a big deal. It was a necessity. She warmed up the speculum (why, thank you doctor) and then, well, stuck it in.
After a minute or two of her moving around, I started to get the giggles, but I kept myself in check. I mentioned that during my abdominal ultrasound, I had to prop my hips on my fists. She got a pillow instead and went back to it.
After another minute or two, she said, “I’ll just use the other speculum. It’s just a bit longer.”
She warmed that up, put it in, and… A few minutes later, she sighed. “I’m just not getting a good view.”
She tried again for a little big and then sighed. She’d given up. No good view. No PAP Smear. Just commentary about how I have a ‘deep’ cervix and need to come back when I can sit in their special chair.
Lovely, huh? And you thought your PAP Smear was bad. I just got the prod but not the sample. HEHE!
My husband’s comment when I told him later?
“Oh, so you don’t have a womb with a view.”
Oy.
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01 Oct 2009 | By Jaime
One of the big reasons I am trying to lose weight is because I want to have as healthy of a pregnancy as I can. While having a baby isn’t in my close financial future, that just means I have more time to work with when it comes to losing weight.
I’ve lost a heap of weight since starting meal replacements in May, and I am very proud for having done that. And yet, I’m not where I thought I would be having lost forty pounds. Like I said, we’re not ready for baby right now, but I at least thought we’d be using condoms because I wouldn’t need to be on The Pill for regularity any more.
I’m tempted to tell the doctor that I want off birth control, but I don’t see what my other options are for at least keeping up the image of things going without it. Sure, it was fine when I got my ultrasound early this year, but that doesn’t mean going a long while without a TOM won’t screw me up next time or cause problems.
I want to be a mother so badly, but I am afraid that whatever is going on with my body is going to prevent that dream from coming true. I know a lot of women with PCOS (I’m not 100% sure I have PCOS, by the way) just have to lose a little weight and then they get pregnant, but therein lies the problem.
Now I have lost weight, and it doesn’t seem to have done much. They say just 5% of body weight lost helps most women to restore regularity, and yet nothing is happening for me off The Pill.
Rock, hard place, rock, hard place.
I don’t want to damage what chances I have of getting pregnant, but am I doing the damage by staying on birth control or going off it?
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