Starting Weight: 264
Last Week: 224
This Week: 222

Pounds Lost: 42

Woohoo! I always love a change for the better when it comes to my weight.

With the need to fill my birth control prescription coming up, I have been looking more into herbal remedies. I don’t want to just go off the stuff willy nilly and hope that I will eventually get a period. That’s not good. I would, however, like to be on herbs rather than hormones.

This last PMS time really struck it home that I am, at the very least, not on the right kind of pill. I’m still tired, I’ve had the munchies, been mood swingy, had headaches…

Even with all that, it’s easy enough for people to come here and tell me what I need to do. (That’s actually fine, as I’m more than happy to research any advice given.) But it’s harder to do when you’re the person doing it. I don’t just want to ditch the pill (as much as I dislike it) and risk all of the things I risked last time by not keeping things ticking along for months.

I guess I’m just feeling a bit stroppy about it all. Five pounds was all it used to take and then I would have a TOM. Now about 15% of my body weight is gone and I’m still dealing with all this crap. It doesn’t make me feel great about my chances of having kids.

I do well. I’m not perfect, but I do well with my eating habits. And yet, it just never seems enough. I had to do meal replacement to lose any significant amount of weight. Again, it’s easy enough for someone to come along and say ‘this works!’ but I have to figure out what works for my body, my life, etc.

This turned into a bit of a rant and I didn’t mean it too. Oops.

I’m not saying don’t give me advice. I’m not mad at anyone. I’m just mad that things are like this.

Thankfully, though, we have a herb farm just a short drive away. I’ll be going there soon for some help with all this.