Naturally Curvy

Starting Weight: 264
Last Week: 226
This Week: 224

Pounds Lost: 40

Phew! It feels good to be back in the 40 pounds lost arena.

This week is all about getting started again on the right track. Apparently I’m not the only one who feels suddenly inspired this week.

I got a smack upside the head, so to say, with the gorgeous spring weather lately, and I realized just how much I would love a cute summer dress. I would love to need a new swimming suit, though I may have to settle for mine fitting a bit better because my generous chest made it almost too small last year.

My goal is to break past the 200 mark by the end of this year. That could be a big ask, but now I’m back on meal replacement I feel like I can do it. I feel like I can gain back my focus. It has been nice to be able to relax a bit on the dietary restrictions to enjoy things that are good for me but restricted on the plan, but I’m ready to go back on for another three month stint.

Of course, I already have social occasions to work in, but that’s okay. I’m not worried about them.

My big motivator is realizing that my next doctor/dietitian appointment is coming up in November and I would like to show another nice loss again when I go in.

The funny thing is that my mood has been absolutely wonderful since deciding to go back to things full on. I feel great for just taking the step back to health.

I hope everyone else is doing wonderfully as well.

Starting Weight: 264
Last Week: 228
This Week: 226

Pounds Lost: 38

Well, two pounds down is a good thing, of course.

I’m honestly surprised that I have lost anything, given TOM and the emotional vulnerability I have been feeling lately. I’ve been doing a lot of self-examination, which tends to leave one tired and with a ‘can’t be fussed’ attitude toward everything including food.

The thing is, though, where I would usually binge, I no longer do. Yes, I wasn’t perfect. Yes, I indulged. But I didn’t binge, and that is a key point.

The physicality of binging is no longer possible in the way it used to be. My stomach just isn’t as big as it used to be. Not to mention how much I hate the feeling of being even a little overfull now.

The problem is that all the books and people in the world will tell you how to ‘get on track’ and stop binging and/or comfort eating… What they won’t tell you is how to deal with your emotions when you can no longer turn to food for comfort.

It’s all part and parcel with the journey, really. I do realize that. But that still doesn’t give me any sort of half-way mark for helping me to feel better when I’m down.

But the good news is I’m back on the way down, and I intend to keep going down. I’m working a lot on my stress levels because I am aware enough of my body to know when the mono/glandular fever is trying to resurface (I’m one of the small percentage of human beings who can and do have recurrences of mono/glandular fever).

I’m getting better, but I’m realizing that stress relief and management has to be placed at just as great an importance as tools for stopping binge eating.

Anywho, those are my thoughts for the day. I hope you all are truly doing well on your journey.

*hugs*