Starting Weight: 264
Last Week: 228
This Week: 226

Pounds Lost: 38

Well, two pounds down is a good thing, of course.

I’m honestly surprised that I have lost anything, given TOM and the emotional vulnerability I have been feeling lately. I’ve been doing a lot of self-examination, which tends to leave one tired and with a ‘can’t be fussed’ attitude toward everything including food.

The thing is, though, where I would usually binge, I no longer do. Yes, I wasn’t perfect. Yes, I indulged. But I didn’t binge, and that is a key point.

The physicality of binging is no longer possible in the way it used to be. My stomach just isn’t as big as it used to be. Not to mention how much I hate the feeling of being even a little overfull now.

The problem is that all the books and people in the world will tell you how to ‘get on track’ and stop binging and/or comfort eating… What they won’t tell you is how to deal with your emotions when you can no longer turn to food for comfort.

It’s all part and parcel with the journey, really. I do realize that. But that still doesn’t give me any sort of half-way mark for helping me to feel better when I’m down.

But the good news is I’m back on the way down, and I intend to keep going down. I’m working a lot on my stress levels because I am aware enough of my body to know when the mono/glandular fever is trying to resurface (I’m one of the small percentage of human beings who can and do have recurrences of mono/glandular fever).

I’m getting better, but I’m realizing that stress relief and management has to be placed at just as great an importance as tools for stopping binge eating.

Anywho, those are my thoughts for the day. I hope you all are truly doing well on your journey.

*hugs*