Naturally Curvy

I really don’t want to post this. I mean really, really don’t want to post this.

Even though I’m feeling confused and I don’t know what’s going on with my body, I still feel almost… ashamed that my fitness friends are going to read this. Like I’m going to get kicked out of the fitness club or something.

I know that’s utter BS, but still.

Okay, deep breaths.

SW: 256
LW: 254
CW: 260

Ugh. I feel like crying just typing out that number. I told myself that I’d never get to 256 again and look where I am now. I don’t understand. I didn’t have an ice cream cake night. I didn’t have an all-night bender. I don’t eat potato chips or snack mixes anymore. I don’t drink soda but for the occasional sprite. Even being sick this weekend didn’t down the pounds.

What happened?

One possibility is phantom TOM. I’ve been having the yucky stomach, tender/big boobs and headaches that come with TOM. Taking it for granted that I’m on a 28 day’er (which I have no way of knowing for sure), and calculating from August ’08 – the last real TOM I had – Jan. 19th should have been the start of my TOM. So, it could be leftovers from whatever hormones are streaming around trying to get my body back into proper working order.

I’m holding onto that for now and hoping that, though annoying and depressing, this is actually a sign of good things from my improved eating and exercise regime. Honestly, though, I have to hold on to that because I might just give up if I don’t have a reason for this gain.

I’m being utterly careful for the next week. I’m weighing myself every day, drinking more than minimum water every day. Nothing even close to naughty.

I’ll fix this. I’ll figure it out.

I hope you all are doing wonderfully. Truly.

SW: 256
LW: 253
CW: 254

Well, there is no beating around the bush this week – I landed well and truly on the 254 mark.

I suppose for this past week, I can only blame myself. The elliptical needed to be fixed, so I didn’t get my regular time on it. While I made up for that with a lot of walking and some jogging (!), I can’t help but think that I needed to do more to match the amount of calories I would have burned using the elliptical.

It was also Mr. JM’s birthday, so I took him out for an indulgent meal where we both ate too much. Thankfully, the ‘too much’ consisted of seafood and veggies and then we split a single piece of chocolate cake, so it wasn’t as bad as it could have been (eg. Party snacks and beer – not that I would drink beer). I do know that I probably should have had more activity on the weekend to help make up for the amount of seafood and veggies I had.

I’m very happy to say that I finally went out and bought a stability (exercise) ball. It’s a big blue one and it has been a lot of fun working on my core stability. Even if it has made me a bit sore getting used to constantly balancing. But that’s what it’s for.

I’ve also noticed that my body seems to be in a state of flux, so to say…

Remember back when I said I was having an ‘I feel fat’ week? Well, it sort of went away, but not completely. I feel like all my weight is shifting to my middle. Instead of feeling like a ‘solid’ woman, I definitely am feeling more like I’m fat around my hips and abdomen.

I told this to Mr. JM and he said that I should measure myself straightaway because knowing whether or not I have actually grown in that area or if I’m just feeling like I have can help come time for my appointments… So I did measure myself…

Plus about two inches since January 9th. Ugh. Even factor in human error – maybe I pulled the measuring tape a little tight last time or did it a little higher this time – that’s still so much… I don’t even know if that’s a good, bad or just a weird thing, but you can be sure I’m going to ask about it come February 12th.

Maybe I need to be doing sit ups or something as well.

How is everyone else doing?

I actually forgot about weighing in for a little bit. Eesh. You take one week off and your mind goes to fluff… BUT I do have the numbers, though they are not very exciting.

SW: 256
LW: 252
CW: 253

Not happy. Not happy at all. My scale sucks, so I could be at 254. I’m considering buying a digital scale to get rid of the uncertainty, but I don’t know if the more exact measures would drive me nuts or not…

Today I’m letting myself have a day just to be pissed off. I’m not going off and hauling into a carton of ice cream, but I’m not going to berate myself for feeling sorry for myself. I’m going to be pissed off and that’s that. I don’t think denying I’m upset about a gain – a gain! Despite all my hard work! – is going to do my any good. I need to get the feelings out of my system so I can get back to it soon.

Needless to say, though, I’m getting more and more eager for my appointments next month. I really want to do/take whatever is necessary so I can get my system back into swing.

I’m just trying to keep in mind that by keeping going now, I’m keeping in place the good habit I’ve set up. Better to have them there and working for me while I get my system balanced/fixed than to start from scratch next month.

And now for my minutes of exercise update…

I’m still quite behind where I should be as far as minutes go, but I had to take Sunday off because it was obvious my body was in need of a rest. I’ve also figured out that, for right now, twenty minutes continuous is pretty much my limit.

Instead of continuing to stress out my body, I’ve decided to do thirty minutes a day by breaking it up into ten minute sections three times a day. I’m not stressing my body so much that way and I’m getting in even more exercise time.

How is everyone else doing?

I actually forgot about weighing in for a little bit. Eesh. You take one week off and your mind goes to fluff… BUT I do have the numbers, though they are not very exciting.

SW: 256
LW: 252
CW: 252

Still at good ol’ 252. Considering the indulgences I let myself have over the holidays, I’m okay with that number. Well, not okay, but I’m definitely glad I didn’t see a gain on the scale.

I am, unfortunately, having one of those times when I really ‘feel’ fat. Those times usually come when I haven’t been drinking enough water, though, so at least I know what to do to work toward getting past the feeling. I’m already halfway to where I need to be for today and it’s not even noon, so that’s a good start.

I saw on Hanlie’s blog that she is keeping track of her exercise minutes in her sidebar and I think that is an awesome day. At the point I’m typing this, I have a pathetic five minutes, but I’m going to keep track of my minutes exercised in my weigh-ins from now on.

Whee! I think I should have a goal number of minutes for the year…

100 hours = 6,000 minutes = ~ 16.5 minutes of exercise per day

Sounds good to me! What do you think? So here is my first recording of exercise minutes.

5 minutes of exercise
5,995 minutes (99 hours 55 minutes) to go!

Now I’m going to do some time on the elliptical! I have to make up for the time I missed!