SW: 256
LW: 252
CW: 252
I’ve been feeling a bit crabby and depressed lately, so you’ll have to forgive me if I rant.
I know I said last week that it has suddenly become a lot less about the numbers, and it has. That was no lie. I’m more concerned about what I’m achieving in regards to healthier eating and exercise. Heck, I’m up to fifteen minutes on the elliptical and I am totally proud of myself.
But (you knew that was coming, right?) I am getting nervous. I’m exercising nearly every day now and I’m not losing weight. Heck, I gained two pounds last week, but I passed it off as water weight.
This happened when I first started going to the gym as well. I started exercising and the weight loss just stopped. I wasn’t exactly losing heaps then or now, but still. And now I have this fear that it’s going to happen all over again and the weight loss will just stop.
And if one more person gives me the ‘you’re gaining muscle’ speech, I’m going to scream. I know you can gain muscle when you strength train and whatnot. I know how it works. It’s *not* normal to stop losing weight when you add in exercise. Gaining muscles happens, yes, but you don’t just stop losing weight for over half a year.
I feel like there is a third player in this stupid game that is keeping my body from working properly. I am not expecting miracles, but I’ve been exercising, eating right, keeping a food diary, drinking heaps of water, and all I have to show for it is a two pound gain? Something isn’t right there.
That’s not going to stop me, though. I fully intend to be able to go for thirty minute runs on the elliptical before my appointments in February.
SW: 256
LW: 250
CW: 252
So I’ve somehow managed to gain two pounds. I’m pretty certain it has something to do with retaining water as well as my body just adjusting to all the changes I’ve made since last Wednesday.
To be honest, since I got the bad news, my caring about the number of pounds I have on me has just gone out the window. I still want to lose weight, of course, but I’m not focused on the numbers at all. Well, maybe 1% of the time.
Right now all my healthy energy is going towards focusing on keeping a food diary and making healthy choices with my food. Maybe that was my problem all along – my focus has been in the wrong place. I wouldn’t be surprised.
I feel like I’m on the right track right now. That hasn’t reflected in poundage, but I’ve only really changed my life since last Wednesday. And I don’t say ‘changed my life’ flippantly. It’s like… I received the news from the doctor and suddenly everything has changed. I’ve immediately dropped things that were occasional indulgences.
My husband actually put a small chocolate bar in my hand (it was time to eat and the only other thing on hand was a muesli bar I don’t care for) and wouldn’t have held it against me if I ate it, and I gave it back to him. I thought about it, but the urge to eat it just wasn’t there.
I guess there is nothing like getting the news, “This could kill you” to make you clean up your act, huh?
SW: 256
LW: 250
CW: 250
Haha! It seems I’ve gotten myself off to a good start… and a plateau.
Actually, it’s not that bad. I’ve been working out, but I’ve been having an uberhard time keeping with eating on schedule and drinking minimum water. It feels like I can do one thing really well for an extended period, but get all these things going that I need to do and remember and I falter a bit.
BUT, as ever, my optimism is running high and I’m just going with the flow. Habits don’t form overnight, weight doesn’t just drop off overnight (I wish!), and things worth having are worth working for.
I’m getting a bit antsy already about my blood test results. I go back to the doctor on Wednesday to find out what’s what and see what form of The Pill I go on, etc. (I’m assuming she’s going to put me on The Pill, as I don’t want to get pregnant for at least a year.) The good news is that I have stuff to do after the doctor as well, so I can think and focus on that.
The awesome thing lately is that I’ve been encouraging my husband (just as he encourages me) to get on the exercise bandwagon. He’s even now having a smoothie for breakfast most mornings! He’s been giving fruit and muesli bars a go so he can eat smaller amounts more often.
Overall, it’s looking better and better for both of us!
How are YOU doing?
SW: 256
LW: 250
CW: 250
Hello readers and hello Monday! Wow, it’s finally a Monday that I wasn’t dreading.
As you can see, there is no change in my weight from last week, but I am honestly not surprised. I had some down mood swings, and I just plain wasn’t interested in eating. Don’t worry about me – I listened to my body (and my blood sugar) and ate when I needed to. However, I found it impossible to keep up with the eating on schedule.
The good news (some of it, there is plenty!) is that the behaviour has helped ease my headaches. I still have more pain than usual, but it’s at manageable levels and isn’t constant by any means.
Good, good, good!
I did pretty well with exercise last week (there’s always room for improvement) and I’m looking forward to doing even better this week. I can’t tell you how nice it has been to have the elliptical in the flat. Not only is it heaps more convenient for me, the husband is getting more into using it as well!
It’s also nice to be able to come home and, if I’ve had a bit too much to eat, hop on the elliptical for a little while. It works like a charm when I want to feel better.
I hope you are all truly doing well and feeling great! If you have a second, stop by and say hello to Jenera. She is going in to have her son this Friday! Woohoo!
